When I find myself drowning, and can barely get my head above water, my God is an awesome God.
When I don't know how I am going to pay my bills, my rent, what do I do, I usually fret. But When I cry out to Him, He hears me, and delivers me from all of my fears. When I feel myself being totally consumed by troubles, I cry out, and I cry our, and I cry out, My God is an awesome God.
When I think of the past, my failures, the things I should have said no to, but did anyways.
The lost time with my child, worrying to much if I am a good parent, and not trusting that God will help guide me. When I have allowed myself to struggle, and fret, and doubt God's goodness, I look, and what do I see outside, rain, thunder, and lightening, but the sun is shining, a rainbow comes into the sky, because I am supposed to walk by faith, not sight. I am supposed to trust, not doubt.
Why do I doubt, because of fear, why do I fear, because I have not allowed Him , to perfect me in love. I have allowed my pain to become my identity, to define me, instead of identifying with Him.
I am a new creation in Christ, all things have passed away, and behold, all things are becoming brand new. I am a child of God, saved by the blood of the lamb, and by His stripes, I am healed. I am the woman at the well, I am the woman, diseased for years, I am the man born blind, but Jesus has opened my eyes, He has looked at my accuser the devil, and says to me, " Do not be overcome by evil , but overcome evil with good" How do I overcome evil I cry out, and in my distress, let your light shine before men, that they may see your good works, and glorify your Father, who is in heaven.
How do I glorify you Lord, I press on, In order to gain life, you must lose it. How do I lose it?
Without faith, it is impossible to please God.
My faith has been stretched over , and over. And God has always, been faithful, even when I was faithless. He has provided for all my needs, and even though my future is uncertain. I know He is holding me, in the palms of His hands. He is my security when all seems uncertain. He is my Rock, and my refuge. He is the one that speaks over the storm, and turmoil, in me, and says Be still, and I am flooded with His peace. He says in this world, I will have trials, and tribulations, but I am to be of good cheer, because He has overcome the world.
He has overcome every fear, He has overcome every hurt, every hangup, every rejection, every time loneliness creeps in , and I feel the isolation , He has overcome that too. He says Come to me , all you who are weary, and burdened , and I will give you rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light. Matt 11:28-29
So as I cast all my cares at His feet, something beautiful happens. Ashes are turned to beauty, the oil of joy is being poured on me, and filling me with hope, and I no longer carry in my spirit heaviness .
Because Jesus has taken it, and replaced it, and everything that was once cracked , and broken, becomes whole. I take His hand, and He speaks abide in me, and I will abide in you, for apart from me you can do nothing. I am betrothed to Him forever, I am my beloveds and He is mine. He reaches down, picks me up, and I am lifted, I am well, I am His.
